Sorrows

 I’ve never been a happy girl and I don’t ever see that changing. I’ve often said, “God didn’t make me to be a happy person.” After reading the Bible, I know that’s untrue. I just haven’t figured out how to find the joy.

When my dad died, a friend said to me, “You have had such a hard life.” I didn’t know that. I thought this was just life. I know of people who’ve had it worse. I am weary of living life as though I’m waiting for the next trauma, though.

I know there is supposed to be joy in Jesus. And I have moments that I feel so loved by Him. I feel like I’m failing Him because I don’t feel the joy all the time.